The whole writing and recording process for my Crejuvent’s debut EP Time was very memorable. The first ideas started sprouting at some point around 2015 and it took about a whole year to write since I was doing it sporadically in my spare time. In the summer of that year, where I started playing around with most of the ideas that ended up going on the EP, I moved in with my ex-girlfriend and that was rough. I had just left Uni, was struggling for money, and was thrown head first into this relationship that, looking back, was borderline abusive in some instances. The house we moved into was nice though…
I would spend most of my days at home playing World Of Warcraft and eating cheese puffs on my living room, and since my ex-girlfriend would leave sometimes for weeks at a time for work, I’d get up to the spare room in the house where I had my desk set up and just play around and write stuff late into the hours of the night. I was bored a lot and I spent an awful lot of time on my own, and I think all that extra time allowed me to articulate my depression through the music in a very memorable way. Oddly enough I don’t think I ever actually finished any songs that would up on the EP whilst I was living there, although I wrote and recorded a lot of silly little songs. Whenever she WAS home, however, was a different story, and I think that since most of the hardships in my life at that point were based around the relationship I retrospectively associate a lot of the anger and confusion that comes across on the songs to our time together.
When we eventually broke up and I moved out, I spent a few months couch surfing and was sort of forced to get a job of any kind. Eventually I got my own place around May 2016 and that was when I was able to finish writing the songs and properly plan out the EP. I had a little bit of peace of mind which allowed me to objectively look at the music that I had started writing and put all the emotional pieces together – an abusive relationship, unemployment, loneliness, depression, couch surfing for months, experimenting with drugs, all of that had taken a bit of an emotional toll and since I was starting to feel more comfortable with everything I thought it was time to lay all that out in the open and the aspects of that time that affected me the most wound up on Time.
Some of my most meaningful experiences in my life looking back happen during the summer or when the sun is out. I remember recording and mixing the EP very well because it happened during spring. I had these huge windows in my flat that really lit up the room. The carpet was this almost burgundy shade of red and the walls were slightly yellow, which created a sense of peace and focus when the sun shone through the windows. Looking out the window was this little courtyard that was full of bushes and vines and shit, and now that I think about it was probably the greenest view I’ve ever had during my time here in Liverpool. Despite recording and working on such heavy music, that sense of tranquillity and focus was key in me being able to concentrate my energy into something that was ultimately extremely cathartic. It definitely set up a standard for myself emotionally for my future releases.